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against my better judgment stresses
inf.	вопреки здравому смыслу (against one's better judgment – making a decision despite having serious doubts or misgivings |: A year ago, I decided to lend my friend $2,000 against my better judgment and now she hasn’t paid me back a penny and avoids me. • Don't you think it might be against your better judgement to quit your job without having another one lined up? • My wife went away for the weekend against her better judgement and now she's stuck in Boston because a blizzard has forced airport to close down for a few days. Rust71)
against my his, her, etc better judgment
gen.	скрепя сердце (в некоторых контекстах SirReal)